Dear Bloggie.

Please Just Shut The Fuck Up.

Gone. Will I Ever Come Back? Probably Not. So Farewell.

Happy Christmas

I might be a bit late on the holiday season, but it's alright. It's alright because now I'm feeling it. Maybe it was the snow, just maybe.

Maybe I dream of Christmas as white, pure, happiness. Thats what happened to me today Bloggie.
It snowed! I kept my promise, and I was with the person who makes happy. I was so happy that i didn't even feel cold. Maybe my heart was beating so hard that it kept me warm. Just maybe.

Sorry bloggie for not posting in a long time. I felt that nothing else was important. Sorry once again.

Butterflies

Butterflies are all I feel.
The excitement in my stomach.
The thrill of flying.
The thrill she gives me.

Today was good. Finally a good day coming around. It seems karma has worked its magic. The magic I enjoy.

Back to the butterflies. They feel all nice and warm, the feeling of warmth and comfort. This feeling that I have yet to feel in a while. The feeling that I'm safe. And I'm safe in her arms. As long as those arms are there I'll be fine.

Just Pull The Trigger Already

Let this misery end.
Let this pain go away.
Let this memory vanish.
Let this become a new start.
Let this new start become history.
Let this history become remember at all times.

Just pull the trigger so then this all can end, and hopefully society would be better off. As on that cue, it tells me to go. Go and fly. Fly and wander. Wander into depths where i cant survive. But yet i still wander because this is what i want, all i want to be is in pain. I want my body to feel the pain as my feelings do. I want my karma to work out already. I want to be able to see the sunshine after a rain storm. But everyday in my books its raining, and not just rain but blood, the blood from my heart. The heart that was never worth it, the heart that'll never see the brightness of light again, again


untill you ........

So this is it?

This is the end of regents week ehh?
It seemed to go by so fast. It seemed like as if only been 2 days has passed by, because I guess those were the only "good" days.
Well last night, I had this weird dream bloggie, maybe you'll understand it.

Well it started off great, everything seemed fine, then it went terribly wrong. It felt as if i lost everything i ever cared about. It felt as if the blood in my heart was pouring out drip by drip, until it was dry then it was pull out. It felt as if i have lost all hope. Towards the end of the dream i've become death. and blind and that when i woke up, and it felt so real. people say dreams are a foreshadow of a person's life, is this what is planned for me? Is this my destiny to lose everything i have, to become a miserable man always in pain?

Well now at least i have memories, and hopefully they'll never leave me. Hopefully i'll make even better ones and hopefully i'll have my heart again. So then i can love once again, but as for now, i'm just an emotional-less person always in pain.


Pain doesn't hurt........ when its all you ever felt.

I Know I Said I Wouldn't

I know I'm not suppose to post anymore. but today it was just horrible. so horrible only maybe you can understand Mr.bloggie. All i need is some time with someone who can understand and listen. All i need is for my parents to understand that time has changed. All i need is for my head and my heart to work together. All of this i need, but will i ever get....



FUCKING HELL NO

beacuse life is just a bitch.

Will You Remember?

Will you remember?
Will you really remember?

This post discusses the fact of remembrance. The fact of the end of ever year or every day. What would you be remembered for? Will you be remembered as the nerd, the hot guy, the popular person, the joker, the loser? What will you be remembered for? As for me what will I be remembered for is the fact that I'm an lazy Asian who tried to please everyone, who wrote on this blog for the last 2 weeks. But here the comes the catch, is will someone ever remember me? Will they truly beable to remember my face 10 years from now and still be able to recall my name and memories? Will they be able to say that we were once great friends or we were once lovers? Will they be able to remember all of this? Now comes the hard part, what will you do to make them remember? Just remember live every day as it was the last, so ask yourself will you be remembered?

This will probably be my last entry.
So Good Bye my fellow friends
Live life and prosper I know you can,

Let fate guild you ♥